Oh crap. It's the pre-Halloween office party, complete with costume contest & piles of junk food. How am I going to get through this day?
I did pretty good yesterday1,000 cal plus yoga & treadmill. This afternoon, I'll hit the treadmill again at lunch & head to the gym after work for bike & weights.
I will just try to ignore the piles of food all around.
I was thinking about going gluten free. It seems like I do better on super restrictive diets. I have to plan better. I have to think more. I have to keep track of what goes in. Plus, that's really the only way to know if I have a gluten intolerance - to eliminate it & add back in.
How did I get so fat to begin with? Depression? I don't even know. I'm so embarassed by my size 16 jeans. All of my friends are so skinny. I can't wait until I can be around them & not be "the fat one"
At this point, even a giant size 12 pants would seem like a relief. A move in the right direction, for sure.
I hope, I hope I'm under 190 on Monday. Today will be so hard, but the rest of the weekend shouldn't be. I should be able to restrict & work out & be fine.
Holding tight to something I can control.
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